{Why'd you have to be so clueless?.

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2/16/2009 10:33:00 PM

Friendship... stinks. Acquaintances work well for me. I'm good. I'm eccentric. I'm bothered. I'm carefree... or am I? How do I feel? Someone, tell me, how do I feel? How should I feel? Who am I supposed to be in front of you, you, you, you, you, you, you... and you? You, you, you, you, you and you.. all of you would hate me if I'd be myself...

Exactly... exactly... painful... all of you... no.. you don't trust me at all... no matter how much trust and effort I've put into my friendships... all of you, are merely sucking it all up - enjoying the best of what I can give; watching me wither and dry as I would wilt to the ground like that of plants in a massive drought.

She has left me, I had just given up hope in friendship.. what's there that's left in this world for me? Tell me? Who else, other than my family, would be there to know whom I am? Have I been bad? Have I been ethically and morally out of sorts? Or am I just.. not worth all of your time?

I think it's all of them. So I should change myself? AGAIN? FOR ALL OF YOU? are you guys nuts? when I've already done much? what have all of you done? I never expected anything, but there should be a limit to what I can give - and all of you made use of that. All of you made use of this credit card till it has reached its limit. Why not try using a DEBIT card guys?

Exhausted and beat... I GAVE UP