{Why'd you have to be so clueless?.

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2/24/2008 02:37:00 PM

Someone managed to unlock that grand oak door that separated me from everyone else in the outside world, and that someone hasn't broken any glasses that i've lined perfectly on that grand dining table in the great hall of my world.. I found her, or rather, she found me.

I love this song.. Not because she dedicated it to me. Listen to it with your heart, not your ears. You'd understand its purpose here and now and perhaps, in future as well. Everything seems so ideal now; everything seems so real... (well it is..)

It's been such a long time.. I haven't seen the rays of light from dawn for aeons.. For i've been locked in my world, all because i'm too afraid to let the glasses shatter once more.
My world seemed perfect to me..
No mistakes,
No errors,
No one..
it's my standard of perfection and only mine. But there's always that missing piece within.. I was missing a companion of whom i could place my utmost trust upon.

Before you came, I was greeted by the 4 walls that surrounded me. I'd hear my voice reverberating and echoing off the walls down that hallway. Candlelight was the only consolation i have as it was yellow in colour.. The rest of my world was draped in black and white.

Then you came, brought in many colours that would brighten up my day (especially pink..).
Life wasn't the same anymore..
I no longer hear my own echoes when i speak;
I no longer feel monotonous in life;
I no longer felt that living was worthless..
You brought value into my life;
You brought me a new purpose to live for;
You revived me from my state of hibernation.

As I recall what it was like to survive in the outside world once again, I no longer fear it.
Because i know you'd be there by my side;
Because i know you'd guide me through;
Because i know you'd love me as much as i would love you.

Things may seem so blissful now, but not to fear, I'll do my part to maintain the bond between us.. because i can see your constant effort that you put in to be with me. I may feel insecure at times.. I may feel unsure about certain things between us.. And you'd always assure me that everything would be alright and that you'd face my problems together with me, so that i'd feel at peace again..

And as i held your hand, i knew i wouldn't be lonely again.. Although i was reminded of my past.. And i was worried to make the same mistake again.. You assured me that nothing would change.. That was when.. i realised, i was in safe hands...

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2/03/2008 01:33:00 PM

I don't wish for any more conflict.
I just want you to live a happy life peacefully.
I just want you to be happy.
I just want you to be yourself.
I don't want to give you up.
And most importantly,
I don't want to lose you.

You'd always have a place in my heart.
You'd always have someone to rely on.
You'd always have someone to trust.
You'd always have someone to fill that emptiness for you.

It's not something that others should decide for us, neither is it so for us to end it just because of some minor setback..

We should stay united, we should strive on for the sake of happiness.
And not to dwell upon the milk that has been spilt from the past.

Be well.. the blog isn't dead.. but i just can't think of what to write since i've already expended all that brainpower on that ultra longwinded email i sent you.. so yup.. continue flooding my taggy.. and i'll keep you company.. everyday.. with my short messages.. and would call you if possible.

*Pardon me for my simple post, my readers.. i'm really exhausted..