{Why'd you have to be so clueless?.

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6/08/2008 01:12:00 PM

It's been quite some time now... about 2 months? We left each other 2 months ago, or was that the case? Or was i the one who left? or perhaps... she was? I can't.. figure out.

I may have moved on physically, yet he's still there questing for his memories. I must save him, yet I'm unable to enter his world. In his time and space, if i weren't to forget... was it 060408? Time is the barrier; time is the key; time... why is it hindering my advance?

If there were someone to blame, it would be me, not him. He's constantly grasping on to that final breath of life that would sustain him, whereas here i am, scrutinizing and criticising on his every move. Here i am, writing this entry... for you to save him. Ain't i kind? or not... I despise him. he's holding back my ambitions; he's destroying my bright future. If i kill him, all will end pretty well for the both of you eh?

"Two lovers seek truth in the light of sunset;
Who knows not how harsh that life could be?
Acquaintances show the smiles of living dead;
Rotten apples fall with regret...

Two lovers with forever as their promise;
Yet words of a promise gain no trust.
One prefers preservation,
One prefers continuation...
A world that abhors us presumably...?

Two lovers separated as such;
So much pain; so much sorrow --
Regret speaks an unfamiliar tongue.
I partake my opportunity;
Excited yet collected --
The time for execution has arrived..."

You can't save him... You musn't.. So that i can soar. I've forgotten your number, he remembered them all. The reason why you're so familiar.. is because he still loves you. But i'm different... I don't love, I don't hate -- I'm a figment of his memory that has destroyed the rest of him. Only i can save him.

Stay out of my way. I don't need you to survive. Although deep down inside... he still loves you.