{Why'd you have to be so clueless?.

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4/13/2008 01:04:00 AM

这一秒我哭了

听清清唱了一首歌
是什么旋律呀
让我想起你
你多么冰冷的嘴唇
你决定真的要放手

每一个夜好长我走不完
和你去过的地方
多么冷的夜
我习惯这样的生活

你这一年还好吗
总是担心你的那个我
到底为什么
这一秒我哭了
无法多看你的背影

看这一幕片刻黄昏
什么记忆让你回头
夜深人静时候我都难过
没有你在身边陪我
多么冷的夜
没有人逗留在街头

你这一年还好吗
总是担心你的那个我
到底为什么
这一秒我哭了
无法多看你的背影

都已经失去所有
那现在的我
还在等什么
一个人纪念
听着你最爱的歌
我只能在你电话里留话

我到底在等什么
总是担心你的那个我
到底为什么
这一秒我哭了

爱你的苦衷
没有让你快乐
为了一种感觉停留
and i'm still worrying about all that she would face without me around... even though.. i know i will never retract my orders. My only regret.. was that i wasn't firm enough to hold on to anything i held dear.. I chose to let go after much friction.. thinking that it would be the best solution.. when actually, after doing so, made things worse.

Was i too harsh? Perhaps so..

It was then i realised that.. i could no longer perform well enough.. but i'll find my light again.. i know it. And i'm counting down for that light to re-materialize before me.

I'll be fine, so say you would as well (no bruises, no cuts, no.. self-abuse).

I might return to that state of cold-blooded leadership.. If you were to find me once more, you must revert me back to whom i was.. or else it'll be the end of us.

Smiling isn't easy at all, so i won't do it. I'll find my way.. with whom i was... myself.. back then.

Until then, if you still do love me, then do what's best for me 9 months later. If i am destined to stay this way, then.. the lines would change as they should, and i shall follow them.