{Why'd you have to be so clueless?.

20080101

1/01/2008 08:46:00 PM

4th day.. blogging about the same thing over and over again.. Thinking about the same thing once more. Why do i keep getting stuck in time? I'm starting to reconsider my actions.. I'm not regretting, but i'm there.. I'm there to justify what i've done. And I'd jolly well be able to solve it.

(Which i think i could've solved it long ago.. And which i did somehow recently..)

Such rhapsodies should stop in their own tracks for now.. I should be setting relevant resolutions for the year ahead. And yet.. as every minute would whizz past me now, I suddenly feel this acute pain within my forehead. It's terrible to have both the heart and the brain to hurt just as much.

My entire sensorium seems to be in a big mess, must be due to the acute migraines that i'm experiencing.. I need rest.. But i can never rest when i've so many problems to settle for. Life's a paradox itself.. If you can figure out why i'd say so, then tell me. I'm still searching for the truth that will overthrow my previous hypothesis about life being full of transactions and not relationships.. I'm still searching for the answer.

Hermits lead serene and peaceful lifestyles.. But are they lonely? Many of the average commoners out there would think so. On the other hand, I think otherwise. Perhaps.. they've found a way to cope with that loneliness.. I hope to find that key to living that way.. or perhaps, i might lose sight of my goals and settle for an even better ideal.

(an even better ideal... tsk tsk.. it'll never come true i guess..)