{Why'd you have to be so clueless?.

20071207

12/07/2007 11:17:00 AM

Time is short.. and i'd like to spend every moment i have with my tigress.. Sigh.. I wonder if people read blog posts twice.. hmm.. well, i do.. do you?

pardon me.. i need to think.. and think.. and think... and the more i think.. the more i start to miss her.. this is starting to get rather fruitless, i should stop typing now.. because all i can think of is her..

When i sit down and stare at blank space, the first thing that pops into my mind is not what that's gonna happen..
When i'm busy with work.. i've learnt how to multi-task (completing my work efficiently and thinking of her at the same time).
When i'm about to go crazy, i've learnt how to recover from it without the need to consume anything..

argh..
I'm no longer in the mood for games
I'm no longer in the mood for tv (even though i never really liked tv in the first place)
I'm no longer in the mood for anything.. without her.

Actually.. to repay my debt is only an excuse.. the reason behind it.. If there's a need for a reason, i'm just being altruistic towards my tigress... I'm not going anywhere, or gone anywhere.. i'm just here.. sitting in front of your msn window.. keeping quiet and staring at that your display picture (which you never really changed at all..)

haha.. you must think i'm crazy.. i yearn to speak to her so much.. and yet.. i'd rather be here suffering from those "withdrawal symptoms" for not talking to her.. all this effort, just to give her peace for a few days.. even though she said it once before, "n i like being bothered /<3"..

That's altruism.. but i'm unsure if it'll help her.. i meant.. the peace of mind that i'm giving now.. and i really wonder so..