{Why'd you have to be so clueless?.

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2/23/2007 09:52:00 PM

It's been such a long time since i wrote again... Ignore the previous few entries, i think they're full of bullshit as i finally realised my foolishness... Been really busy anyway, and perhaps this will be the last entry until common test is over.

There's something i wish to share... remember there was once in which i mentioned?

"It hurts even more to lose something you once had than to not have it at all..."

Why is that so? Because you felt how it was like to have it by your side... and by losing it, you literally lost some purpose in your life. In contrast, if you never ever had it before, you'd only feel envious... (which is very much less painful when compared to losing it...)

In this entry, i have 2 examples to write about regarding the words "cherish" and "neglect"

1 -- The new dish in that menu (The LAYMAN example)
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You went to McDonalds (Mac) and you saw this new dish... in which you might term as a delicacy (perhaps McWings or somewhat...). So you decided to try it and you went, "Mmmm.. This is just so heavenly..."

So as the days passed, everytime you went to Mac, you'd order the same dish.. and perhaps you did have an old favourite as well while dining in Mac (maybe some Big Mac or somewhat...).

One day, you realised that McDonald's was no longer serving the Big Mac's... Won't you feel regretful about neglecting your old favourite in order to cherish the new?

2 -- The change in a person's character to blend in (The Not-So-Layman example)
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You were at school... and there was this guy who appeared anti-social (to some) yet mysterious (to some). Now let me set the conditions right first; You were curious about this classmate as he was always so quiet, so lonely, so (whatever..).

And you saw... that everyone was trying ways and means to get close to this person, so that he could be part of the class and that he would share his world with the rest of his human counterparts... You saw such a "phenomenon" and perhaps, you (might) decide to help out by being his friend.

Days passed... He started to open up his world... then you saw that everyone else showed less attention towards him... and perhaps (and i mean perhaps) you decided to follow suit... as you thought that since that chap has finally blended in, there'd be no need to put in that much effort anymore...

(well.. if you ever did think that way... then you'd be very wrong as you're really insensitive... and i'd really wonder why you're even reading this...)

So.. think now.. You cherished him back then and now you're neglecting him? That's really inhumane...
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I didn't have a choice... Neither did i have a path to retreat to... all i had was this winding path of gravel set in front of me... I'm feeling blue... terribly blue... now.. how am i supposed to carry on fighting for my own survival when i'm just so blue... How am i to continue down that path ahead? I've got no idea...