{Why'd you have to be so clueless?.

20070113

1/13/2007 09:36:00 PM

It's been a long time... I've been busy.. very busy and tired... But of course, i can't compare my situation with those whom still remained in the council. And yes of course my busy-ness wasn't all futile. I benefitted a rather huge bit from it, especially being able to complete all my tutorials ahead of time, such that there are timeslots for rest and recreation... even though my mind might still be on work.. at least my presence is there to help generate some existence for those around me.

A crystal shard will never become a desk ornament if it remains unrefined... same goes for everyone... the education, the training, whatever that comes along and teaches us new life skills or bad habits... It's just how our surroundings shape us to be who we are (to the surroundings... ONLY) But now that we know all that, we have always left the centre of that crystal shard untouched. Note, when you polish a crystal shard, you're only dealing with the surface. The real beauty is from within the shard itself.

Notice that no matter how the humans cut or polish the crystals, most humans are still in awe of the clarity of a crystal. The model that was crafted out was only soothing to the eye for a short period of time... So.. if you get my point here, it can be applied to humans. What matters most is not the exterior, not the behaviour, not the character. What matters most is the Personality. (Personality is of a huge difference to the character of a person... BECAUSE... Personality is inborn, character is DEVELOPED)

See the difference now?

Anyway... I'm rather shocked with what inevitability can do to humans... Totally startled when i received a call regarding the loss of a friend's wallet. And yes, given my character and personality, i would do the same even if i didn't know that person. I helped, and that's what every sane human should do. But of course, it was really an opportunity to raise my status level in terms of impression. I must really thank... my parents for this wonderful opportunity in meeting this new friend. And I'm truly greatful to hear her smile through her voice (not many can understand this logic), just like i'm able to hear those insincerity through the voices of those strangers (humans) who are with me in school everyday (and they fondly term it as "We are friends" without knowing what the definition of a friend is...).

I'm happy i helped... I'm very glad i did... imagine if she didn't meet me, if she'd still follow her path till this day... she might have actually lost her wallet for good. Or if she didn't follow that path, I'm not sure if it's better or worse, but it doesn't matter as those are merely my past perceptions.

I can only say that i'm fond of her and that's that. And... if things really work out well... i'll gladly give her the key to my padlock on the grand door. But.. that's the future. No point caring about it now. Focus on the present. Focus... FOCUS.

hmm.. Anyone got "Team Buddies - NTSC (PAL)" PSX .ISO file? GAH.. I need it badly..!!