{Why'd you have to be so clueless?.

20061207

12/07/2006 10:04:00 PM

To hope, but not to expect... I'm on my road to recovery... i wanna try to curb this addiction... I don't wanna rely on them anymore... (Please don't infer in the wrong direction, what i'm taking is like a double-edged sword... haha).

I'm happy!!

Ok.. enough of that crap.. perhaps.. without council, without my classmates... I really feel happiness. If only my class was made up of people from the china trip.. But you can't have everything, can you? I should just cherish what i have right? Yep, so i should just remain NICE and QUIET (that's what i always do...). Just continue to be the perfect student that every teacher would like.

Thanks for helping me fit that window onto that huge living room wall... Now.. i can see the sunshine whenever i want to. I'll never have to be exposed to others and feel happy at the same time in my own world.. Oh, and i fixed up the front door too, check it out when you have time! It's umm.. GRAND, and.. NICE. haha.. Er.. but there's one thing that i can never replace; That is, that padlock which helps to keep the outside world from destroying any glasses inside my world... Nope, i dun want my glasses to shatter alright...

Ah.. and that window.. it's made of double-glazed thingys.. so, i guess it won't crack that easily. Yep, My newly renovated world is much much stronger now.
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Hmm.. no matter what... that room will still remain existent, and i'll never dare to walk into it... unless... someone would show me that it isn't gonna hurt a bit... I'm sure every human would have a room like that of their own.. haha, so.. have you found someone to guide you through it? I haven't found mine though.. And, i don't intend to... I'll let her find me, so that i can guide her through that room... that she had feared since she was born. Ok.. doesn't matter if you dun understand, haha.. this sure does look nonsensical to any passerby though..

Hmm.. so now, i've given out 3 keys... 3 of those who passed. Perhaps it was really a blessing in disguise.. haha.. I'm so glad..