{Why'd you have to be so clueless?.

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11/04/2006 11:57:00 PM

Pepper lunch... that memory seems to replay itself... even while i was eating. I remembered her expression, when i told her that she'd have to cook her own dinner herself.. haha.. i smiled just because of that mere thought.. that mere image that surfaced in that memory. We are happier this way? Will we be? Nothing's wrong on the surface... what the fishes see underwater in a storm... that's what everyone around views me as. The real soul inside is actually that rough sea that sailors view in a storm. But well.. she claimed that time... nah.. time is only a constant, like any other mathematical equation. It can never be a determining factor on how i can forget something that was engraved in my memory, unless... erosion occurs. One must understand the concept of time in order to let yourself flow with it. Many still do not seem to understand, and even if they did, who would accept the reality that time is just a smokescreen for the inferior?

I don't believe in that.

Anyway, she's not mine, but... i know i will wait. My mind is definitely a HELL lot stronger than my peers. Too strong perhaps... it's just sooo strong that i can lose control of it. haha.. Don't forget, i'm not a genius for nothing. Now.. think of this question: "Who are we when we are not?"

Think, use your brain. Infer from it, don't just skim through the surface of everything you see around you. Think deeper. If you can understand this question and answer it for yourself, you should be able to know yourself more than what others know about you. But, if you're still not enlightened by it? Then it's just too bad, I provide paths and solutions for people to take, just like what the teachers do in school. It's up to you to see what's ahead in that path of yours.

HAHA, you must be wondering, "not what??".. well, it's up to you to decide. Take your time, once you found the answer, perhaps you'll know where you're heading. It may be a road to destruction, it may also be a road to success... Life is like a recipe in a cookbook. Once you add the wrong ingredients, it's either you change the end result for the better or for worse... Remember, Nash Equilibria. Governing Dynamics.
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Something else that i wish to add... "Anything that comes in small amounts, humans yearn; Anything that comes in excess, Humans fear." Still, i won't spoonfeed any of my readers.. so yea, you'll have to figure it out yourself. Remember what i said, "It's for me to know and you to unravel."

Someone told me that i can paint pictures with just words. Thank you, I take it as a compliment, and i shall continue to fascinate you with my abilities in doing so, watch out for my future exemplifications.

Went to borders today, saw a book that was of a rather similar storyline to my very own novel. The title of that novel is "The Alchemist's Daughter". Hmm.. perhaps the title of my novel is too much of a mouthful.. maybe i should change it to something like... "Existence". That'll sound soo much better.

Ok, better go now. Headache is acting up again, been thinking too much, but hey, i love to think.

"The world is for all of us to live in, for all of us to judge one another, for us to pass judgement, for us to fulfill the judgement we passed and for us to recoup our losses in the name of justice."