{Why'd you have to be so clueless?.

20061101

11/01/2006 08:16:00 PM

My life returned to it's usual state... the black and white video.. no colours, very stable life. No happiness and neither is there sadness. Just... plain expressionless. This is the best state of mind to exact revenge. Emotionless and unfeeling. Sigh.. just when i thought the colour tv set was going to come into my world.. it sorta broke down, so i had to rely on the old grayscale tv set... hmm.. and somehow it became muted too.. no.. it was all along a silent tv set. only when the colour thingy came into this world, then i realised that i was able to enjoy some luxurious music produced by it. Oh well.. it just broke down.. nothing i can do about it.. i'm no mechanic. haha.. exemplifying is just so fun...

Mapled the whole day today... nothing better to do, don't feel like studying... and then the electronics shop said they wanted to let me try out the fixed up colour tv set... i couldn't set a date for it to come yet.. cos my schedule is just so... unpredictable.. haha..

Didn't want to go to work with all the executives in firm. the corporate ladder was just so... superficial to me. They were all a bunch a workers who... gossiped, bullshitted... yeah.. and there were also those who lost their temper on the innocent ones. Some were dictators, some thought they were GOD, but actually they were just SLAVES to their own salary. I'm not them, I joined the firm for material needs that i could gain once my term is over. I don't wish to hate humans anymore, cos i'm really at my limit. If i lose my cool... perhaps, i'll be condemned like those witches who were forcibly burnt, by villagers, in some "campfire".

I don't dare to return to wherever i went on those 2 days. it's the same thing as me hating honeydew or someone else hating durian or whatever. I'm avoiding those two dangerous places... even the things found in it... i would avoid. hmm... what should i watch on the tv if it were to come back on one of these days before i embark on a journey? will it be the movies i once watched on it? or will it be... no.. will i be even watching it? What makes me so sure that it'll not break down again? or rather... what makes me so sure that i want to watch movies in colour? I mean.. well, colours are nice, but.. what's the point of watching sad movies?

And yea.. i'll have to tune the channels on the tv myself... what's the point.. why can't it come with pre-tuned channels? Why must i be the one who should put in the effort again? like the last time before it broke down? but what makes me so sure that it wasn't my fault? Did i do too much tuning on that tv that it broke down? Sigh...

Perhaps i shouldn't look anymore, perhaps i should just listen.. to the radio... and be satisfied with what i have. at least i won't feel disappointed anymore. But.. will life become boring that way? I'm stuck in this dilemma...

Ok.. er.. i'll fix a date for that tv to come, prolly will get it out by friday. then.. er.. i might ask the electronics guy to help me tune the tv channels.. prolly by friday too. so that i won't have to put in anymore effort... haha.. that way, i don't climb, and i don't fall.. and maybe.. i should get the delivery company to deliver it to my place... instead of having to go pick the tv set myself.. haha... this is getting so practical... it might seem foolproof... but it doesn't apply to humans. that's why.. those normal, average, everyday humans should not rule the Earth... If only they were wiped out... this world will be really BEAUTIFUL... hahahahahahahaaaa...