{Why'd you have to be so clueless?.

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11/05/2006 05:27:00 PM

Light Yagami of Death Note... I admire his character. Killing pathetic humans without even batting an eyelid. It's not about being cool. It's about being selfish. I need to learn to be selfish, I need to learn to have my will fulfilled. I need to care less about others, I need to learn to be who i really am. I need to be smarter, so that i'll never be on the losing end of any situation. I want to have a heart of steel like him. That's my goal, so i won't be hurt anymore.

I am who i am when i'm not. I'm not anyone's angel, I'm a devil who doesn't care a damned about anyone else. Yes, that's who i am. But i'll be a devil who is kind to animals. I'll be just like a snake. If you don't make the first move to attack me, I won't harm you. That's who i am. Unfeeling... i won't feel for anyone anymore. No one deserves to hold the keys to my padlock. haha.. I made it rust further. Hard to turn the key in that keyhole now... Just too bad.

Someone asked me to love myself before loving others, to care about myself before caring for others. If that's what everyone wants, then.. don't blame me if i hurt you. The words i wield, they aren't vulgarities, they destroy the very foundation of everyone's morale. This is the final move i make, as i know that there'll be someone who'll clear the rust on my padlock. There'll be someone who'll be able to let me see the light again. For now, let me protect myself, unless one of you thinks you're ready to enter through those doors to face me.

Don't beg me for help, cos the final answer is eventually "no", unless, i manage to equate you to the number of benefits that i can gain through helping you. yes, hate me for who i am.

Thanks but No Thanks!!