{Why'd you have to be so clueless?.

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11/02/2006 07:32:00 PM

And so.. i didn't dare to tell anyone, what i'm suffering... but i told her. sigh.. she has the key. oh well.. I hope i won't turn into a freak again anytime soon.. I hate it.. I'm afraid.. Someone.. protect my world from morphing into some hell please?!! I'm frightened of what my other selves can do to strangers... I can't control!!!

A momentarary urge to exact revenge... was just not me at all.. i hate to take revenge. even if i have to.. well.. i will do it in a style which doesn't involve the words "me" or "I"... well.. most prolly my style of revenge would be telling a story that depicts the situation.. but.. nah.. it'll waste so much of my energy.. haha.. so, revenge is not my thing.

And.. i guess.. that padlock of mine seems to be really rusty already... if only i would buy a new one for easier access... but i doubt i would anyway.. haha.. and.. her words somehow.. she threw it away... nah.. well i gave her a new one.. haha.. she won't be able to use the backdoor anymore though. no one will... cos that's where i go mad.. best not to let others see the monster that's hiding behind the back door... perhaps only when there's someone to tame it. yeaps..

I didn't dump my 5th chem student either.. so.. next year will be a pretty busy year for me.. to handle 2 children.. haha.. i never liked children... unless they obeyed whatever that i might tell them.. ok.. study chinese now.. tml "A" lvls.. must return to my pre-promos state of mind... I'm sorry i caused much harm to everyone i know.. it's my fault. don't confront my unless you fully understand my condition... Thanks.