{Why'd you have to be so clueless?.

20061023

10/23/2006 07:21:00 PM

What? What did i say? what did i do wrong? what happened? where? where was that memory? I'm confused... What happened?? Why can't i remember? Who exactly am i? which is the person everyone is talking to? which is the person she knows? how many "me"s do i have? Am i scaring others? What is my personality? Where is my true self? Who am I?!!! ARGHH?? CONFUSION?? What's that??!! Why am i here? where am i? Who are you? why are you reading this? NONO.. I'm ME, I can control them! but... i'm confused? Why are you coming near me? Don't come near me!! Don't harm me!! Just leave me alone!! Stop CALLING MY NAME!! GET LOST!! What's this? This can't carry on.. But no.. they are here. they speak to me.. no, get out.. Don't harm me!! Why me?

that's what people ask themselves during panic attacks. people who are diagnosed with depression hear imaginary voices. i hear them at times, just someone i do not know who keeps calling my name from my back. And it's the same voice all the time.. no, i'm not trying to scare anyone. it's a fact, i have clinical depression, but i am controlling it well.. just that.. panic attacks can't be controlled by merely the power of one's mind.. it's really hard... People who suffer from panic attacks require a lot of care and concern, especially from those whom they trust.. reason being, they can't seem to recognise those whom they dun trust. It's like that person looks familiar to you, but yet you think he or she is trying to harm you.. yea.. so that's what panic attack is in a nutshell.