{Why'd you have to be so clueless?.

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10/13/2006 10:35:00 PM

Great... a few days ago, i wanted so much to die... now when i want so much to live on, my health deteriorates further. Council.. i dun feel attached at all. it doesn't matter whether they will ever read my blog, if i'm bold enough to write it here, I'M DEFINITELY BOLD ENOUGH TO FACE IT IN PERSON.

sorry.. i can't say much today... really.. don't feel to well... perhaps my time is almost up too? better go for full body checkup, something seems extremely wrong...

I'm sure... i'm sure of it, cos i feel it too. humans tend to expect too much. people say they won't, but they actually do, and the worst thing is, people get frustrated over such trivial stuff, thus forgetting about the big picture... maybe it sounds very chim to you... yea.. so maybe take some time to understand.

perhaps once it's understood... you'll see things from a different angle.. wonder what i'm saying, but it's true. Sigh.. wonder how long more do i really have in this cruel world.. i'm really contradicting myself, at one moment i say i wanna leave this place, the next moment i say i dun want...

She's not mine, and yet she's the cause for all these mixed feelings. nono, it's not infatuation, my instinct tells me so. she isn't his either, i helped solve his prob, now i got polluted... what a lousy catalyst i am..