{Why'd you have to be so clueless?.

20061026

10/26/2006 10:13:00 PM

End of year.. PJC J1 wadever bash.. hmm.. yep.. somehow.. it struck again.. couldn't control myself before we went for lunch (we as in.. me, 2 guys and my class gals).. so i decided to take a short walk.. at least to stabilise my condition before facing them again... Really.. i was so lost... but.. yea..

Anyways.. things aren't the same anymore... She never showed that she cared about me anymore.. unlike the past, while weren't together yet.. i mean.. it's like we were somehow moving further apart from each other... What's going on? then this block of ice in between us seems to be building up.. like a really huge snowball.. I'm really sad.. why didn't it return to what it was? WHY? Who's at fault now? Am i the one at fault? did i frighten her? Yes.. my mistake again.. Sorry.

I mean.. all that was needed to make my day today.. was just her talking to me. i mean.. well.. she did in the end. I tried to talk to her several times, all her answers were 1 word answers... was this what it was before? I'm trying my best to salvage the situation... or is it that i was really wrong to even salvage it? I tried my best not to get into her life.. does she want that? I'm totally lost.. tell me what i should do...

But i guess.. the only time i enjoyed most for today was when she sat down and talked to me in the concourse.. I mean.. at least just let me know that i'm remembered... Thanks anyway.